can’t really sleep. kinda zonked out around 9 and then woke up around 12:30. thoughts running through my head. worried about work. it feels like some days they love me and other days they barely tolerate me. how can that be? people quit from there too often. there are many gripes but one gripe is that it’s too corporate. i don’t feel that way. mostly I think people just don’t do their jobs. ideas are clouds. processes are work. these people want to imagine themselves doing their jobs and hope and pray that their jobs get done somehow. magical thinking. but i can’t say these things to them because these people are both low level and high level. as for me, i generally don’t let it bother me but for some reason this morning i am bothered. that’s why i am running a bath and hoping that it will soothe my mind for a while so that i can fal back to sleep.