Month: August 2019

the darkness is tugging again. feel it? it’s like a storm cloud. it feels unavoidable this time. this is what hate does. it draws in everything like a gravity well. it feeds on everything. it awakens dark forces that it summons to do its bidding. those dark forces manipulate and twist minds, so unaware. they act as soldiers in its war against the light. fight. use the light. fight with the light. fight, using the light. fight by means of the light. darkness, return to your domain!!!!!

popularity is a poor motivator for algorithms, especially artificially intelligent kinds based on deep learning and especially deep reinforcement learning. popularity represents, by definition, popular topics. popularity is extremely easy to manipulate. not only that, but generalized popularity represents or invokes the bias of the lowest common denominator. this leads to excessive and sometimes criminal resources being poured into topics that are already base and basic. this leads right into information overload. what happens when i need to research a topic that is underrepresented? well, it means i can’t find it because the resources for it don’t exist because the potential resources were gobbled up by base and basic topics. we need an anti-populist search engine to find those topics that are underrepresented and we need content creators to pour resources into them. otherwise the bleak future presented in pixar’s wall-e will quickly become an optimistic look at the future.

“i fall in love too easily,” a friend and fwb said to me a few days ago. i agree. but it’s not love. it’s infatuation, which is easily confused with love. i don’t just agree, i am a member of the club. i have fallen into infatuation with david. it’s not a significantly different feeling from the one i experienced with joe, carl, chris… so it should be nothing new. yet, it feels crushing. i am being crushed by my own emotions. the repression of this emotion is hard, but i must do it. i must crush the crushing. crush. that’s another word for it. appropriate. more appropriate than infatuation, in fact. i crush easily. david, i crush you. is that a distressing pun? i think so. i think so. so. i’m going to get my shit together. hold on a moment while i pack up all my bags and throw them all in the fucking river. yes, that’s another pun. another term for pun is double entendre. language. it’s my gift.

one of those is a new term i learned today. turns out, artificial intelligence is hard. it currently doesn’t work. bummer for most of the domains out there who were betting on it. you lost!