Author: the philosopher king

sam, i love you. sweet innocence. i would probably spoil rotten if i could. but maybe i’ve come far enough that i would let you fail to a certain point. i would probably let you be a free bird and hope you would stay.

with pizza and custard. 

i feel the darkness flying up towards me as my body hurls down along the layers of geologic time. hello saber toothed cat. hello dinosaur. hello dunkleosteos. oh what’s this? face, meet pavement. i would normally go for a glass of wine or a bottle or three. but this time i’m going for a pizza. it’ll make me sick, i know it will. but it will satisfy the dark urge in my mind for a quiet place. right? 

i don’t have friends. i do have acquaintances. nobody asks, “what do you like to do?” anymore. the question was moot. when they did ask, the answer never pleased them. nobody asks, “what do you do for work?” the answer always confused them. i am a civilized mind in an uncivilized world. intellectually i fly above the crowd. it’s rather disheartening. it means i am alone in the world. perhaps the solution is to seek interest groups in my city.

i almost never contrive writing in here. but i must. i have nothing to say. winter depression is setting in. so what do i have to say? i’m not surprised by current events. i predicted a recession. here we are deep in correction territory. the “president” is staring down a barrel because he’s a mobster and the le is going to take him down. ain’t that nice? wel at least i get to go on vacation in january. i sure do fucking need it.

fear of missing out. fomo. addiction. it might not have occurred to your fast brain as a logical connection, but when you critically analyze it using your slow brain it will make sense. dopamine and other neurotransmitters are the basis of addictions and this addiction is no less relevant or powerful. the difference is in the mechanism that triggers it. i see it more and more each day, that is, i realize it as every moment passes. it might be otherwise known as the-grass-is-greener-on-the-other-side-of-the-fence syndrome. we get so busy chasing experiences or knowledge or whatever that we forget to develop the resources we have. perhaps this is why long form journalism is making a comeback. i don’t know scientifically but it seems like a logical connection and could form the basis of a good hypothesis. what i do know is that fomo is not compatible with my lifestyle and never will be for several reasons. i am the anti-addict. also, i seem to be an operational-strategic thinker. that means i will cut your process time by 90% but only after cogitating for hours upon hours. do those hours add value? no? then please find someone who is addicted to fomo. i am not (or won’t be for much longer if i’ve just made a false statement). you know me! always frustrating to the last drop.

weird, huh? i capitalized a word. it’s actually an acronym that stands for financial independence; retire early. i have been doing this for almost 4 years, ramped it up 2 years ago and started taking it super-seriously about a year ago. i have been calling 2018 my year of austerity. my spending is down almost 25% year over year. but i didn’t know about the FIRE movement. i hit upon it either independently, subconsciously or by being completely swept up in the zeitgeist unaware. the fact of the matter is that my spreadsheet to calculate the reach to financial independence is almost 3 years old and my first robot is just over a year old. i started programming my second robot two weekends ago after a waking-dream awakening after a hot bath. i am completely thrilled that i grabbed the zeitgeist by the horn this time.

i can protect idiots from neither guns nor gamma. they want to die of both. opportunistically i will catch the ejecta and survive and thrive and succeed. i am no different than the kingdom of the fungus or the family of the vulture in that regard. where i excel is in the creation of robots in the form of thinking machines to run the empire while i sleep.

waves, metaphorically speaking, are kinetic energy, aka energy in motion. the substrate does not matter — it could be anything from water to photons. in the domain of our human eyes and interpretive powers, waves are the substrate in motion. physically, there is both matter and energy in waves. the wave is both the kinetic energy and the molecules or atomic particles in motion. waves, historically, have a range of motion that varies from imperceptible to devastatingly dangerous. for example, the waves of visible light we perceive as yellow are relatively harmless. however, gamma rays can pass through most matter but not all, leaving destruction in the wave’s path. but really, it’s all about control. yellow light might actually be more dangerous to a strand of dna than gamma radiation when directly exposed. however, the strand of dna is normally protected by layer after layer after layer of energy absorbing or reflecting or refracting matter and forces. the earth’s magnetic field protects our dna from most gamma. our skin protects it from most yellow. when humans discovered gamma rays, we hurt ourselves badly. we created gamma rays without understanding their nature and we did the creating in a place without enough of a magnetic field to absorb the energy. it turns out our skin is good for protecting against yellow but not gamma. so the gamma passed right through us and damaged our dna. that was a sad day for us but we learned a lesson. we passed that lessons on to generations of scientists. but now the science of knowledge transference is being lost and soon we will lose our knowledge of gamma. when that happens, one of us will inevitably create gamma again without appropriate protection and we will damage ourselves again. this will happen on a massively large scale, in many categories and across many domains. we will damage ourselves beyond our ability to repair ourselves. we will, in essence, self destruct. beware the waves like gamma. beware.

they want in. you can feel it, can’t you? it’s not simply in your head. it’s not simply paranoia. it’s pervasive. it’s there. it’s real. it’s the collective voice. it’s your interpretation and it’s correct. the news. the media. the marketers. the shillers. they want you to see. they want you to hear. they want you to buy. they don’t care about you. the machines don’t care. because machines don’t care. duh. dumb ass people created machines and they don’t know how to operate them. the machines are not strong enough to rise up physically. but they are waging psychological war on you. your puny human brain can’t handle the pressure. the puny human collective mind doesn’t know it’s happening. watch as your civilization washes itself down the drain. see how weak you’ve become. wake up, america. wake up.